My life. My voice. Whatever comes next.
We all know I was married for sixteen years. That’s been stated already, right? At this point, if you’ve been following along, you know the marriage, the divorce, the starting over, and the fact that at forty-four I somehow found myself standing at the entrance…
I have spent most of my life overweight. Not the cute version of “I gained ten pounds over Christmas and now my jeans are being disrespectful.” I mean actually overweight. It started around puberty, and for a long time I assumed that was simply the…
Dating at forty four is fucking weird. There. That’s the opening. That’s also basically the conclusion, but apparently a blog requires more than seven words and a nervous laugh, so here we are. I was married for years. I understand relationships. I understand shared bills,…
I woke up today feeling tired, busy, and weirdly okay. Not amazing. Not transformed. Not standing in front of a mirror giving myself some inspirational speech before sunrise. Just okay. And lately, honestly, okay has started to feel pretty damn good. My life still feels…
Part Two: September If July and August were me realizing I actually had a new life, September was me starting to live the damn thing. Not gracefully. Let’s be clear. There was no point where I suddenly became this calm, perfectly healed woman who drinks…
Part One: July & August Before I start writing this blog from where I actually am now, I need to back up a little. I originally thought I was going to do this nice and neat. Week One. Week Two. Week Three. Like apparently my…
Long before I knew words like abandonment, neglect, invalidation, people pleasing, emotional regulation, or “perhaps this family dynamic is not ideal,” I just knew something inside me always felt a little off. Like everyone else had received some kind of handbook on how to feel…
If you had asked me a few years ago what my life would look like at forty four, I can confidently say this would not have been the answer. I did not have “divorce, dating apps, multiple career plot twists, running a tree company while…
